I haven't been on the computer much lately. Oh, I post on the cat blog, but I haven't been visiting cat blog fiends much, and not posting here. Why? Well, I'm trying to stop smoking.
That may seem odd. But there are reasons. I don't smoke because I'm chemically addicted. I can go without cigs just fine most days. I don't wake up wanting one, I don't want one just sitting around. Days go by and it bothers me not.
I am, however, situationally habituated. It used to be just when I was out on the deck watching the birds and squirrels, mowing the lawn on a riding mower, driving the car, and on the computer. I have eliminated smoking while mowing, standing on the deck, and driving the car on local errands.
But I can't not smoke when sitting at the computer... I don't type or post fast. I like to think about what I'm saying. And when I stop and think at the computer, I NEED a cigarette.
I got through 8 days without a cigarette. The same days I didn't help the Mews visit their friends, and the same days I didn't post here. I'm smoking now. I just CAN'T sit at a keyboard and not smoke. I've gotten it down to "just" then, but I can't seem to stop that "then".
I feel guilty when I don't help the Mews visit their friends every day. Its the "handling" of the cigs I need. And the fake ones are SO heavy that those dont help.
As I struggle through this, I may not seem to be as active in helping the Mews visit their friends. We love you all. I just have this last habituation of the keyboard to eliminate. It will take time. Hang in there for me...